I thought a lot about what you say, and I think that’s what it comes down to, truly. I just have never found the right people, and the many times I’ve tried, is another time of bad behavior. Like even just recalling (I was going to write out a few events, but decided not to) a few times that immediately came to mind, I’m having basically an anxiety or lk panic response. Like it’s like playing poker for the first time and people just take advantage of you. That isn’t fun. Or the loot gremlin with the weak DM. It’s technically just not the right people and not the platform’s fault, but it’s just every. time. and now I’ve a conditioned response to the subject where I’m used to politely declining and saying something dumb like “boardgames aren’t my thing”. And because this is the “totally anonymous” internet, I can talk about this more honestly without fear of hurting anybody’s feelings since nobody’s asking me to play. Tldr, I think you’re right.