@AnAutieAtUni@beige.party @autistics@fedigroups.social My kid recently said my place was all so tidied up and I thought they’re being sarcastic because for me, it was in a big disorder, and required tons of cleaning and ordering - but no, they weren’t snarky, they were being serious. So yes, I am tidying up even when I’m just waiting for a delivery. And I actually HATE doing the cleaning. Ideally, to not feel anxious about my home, I’d need it also clean, spotless and ordered and aligned, but I don’t have the energy to do that myself, and I don’t like other people touching my things or strangers being in my house, so I can’t hire someone to do the cleaning for me(even financial reasons aside), so I’m kinda living in a state of mild irritation by the not perfect cleanness around and constant anxiety that someone can visit