Yesterday and the day before it, my mental health crash WASN'T caused by gender/species dysphoria or political despair. It was caused by despair about me feeling all drained and lacking any executive functioning and feeling too mentally weak to survive and unable to get anything done. I wish so badly I didn't have ADHD. I'd even trade my ADHD in for stronger species dysphoria, that's how desperate I am. At least then I would have the executive functioning to get started on the long road to developing species transition technology. I'm still feeling kinda mentally sore, I don't know if today afternoon will have another bedrotting crash and if these will become a daily occurrence now.