So, the worst is happening, and I'm crashing bad. My normal tranquilizer don't even dent this anxiety I have. Seems like I need to cancel everything, including my groups, which is not only embarrassing, it's a huge hit to myself. But the worst is being totally alone with this. I don't have anyone to support me through this. I guess I'd need to get myself to ER, but don't have the spoons to arrange even that.