kind of a sideways subtoot, but not a dig, just... feeling some kind of way. maybe because i see the endo tomorrow morning. the feeling is: how the hell can i take care of myself, anyway? i'm 45 and spent at least 20 of those years treating myself badly. as a result, i hate my body more than i could have imagined 20-25 years ago. even excluding the baldish spot which, in theory was always outside my control, most of the scars and all of the fat (and stretch marks) were avoidable. 👎🏻